I got a new PC camera last week and have been playing around taking pictures and video clips. Tonight I bought a new hat, and looking in the rear view mirror in the car on the way home I saw myself as cute and sassy...I liked it. But in front of the camera now it is another story. It's just a hat on top of a very large round face.
The "me" that is seen by the world (the same me that is captured in photos) is not the me I see. The people who know me probably see what I see for the most part. The ones who don't may choose not to get to know me because what they see is undesirable. This may have happened recently when I was introduced to the brother of a friend who thought we might...you know...want to go out. He seemed nice, and I let him know I was interested, but I haven't heard from him. I'm not sure it is because he was turned off by my weight, but that's what I suspect.
This may sound conceited, but I feel sorry for that guy if indeed he wrote me off because of my looks. He missed out on knowing me. Funny thing is, he weighs almost as much as I do and I was willing to give him a chance.
Because the way I look does not reflect the real me. And that's probably true for most people, regardless of their size.
1 comment:
Judie, you look fab. Great hat, beautiful skin, and lovely blue eyes. I wish you lived near me so you could teach me how to do my brows.
Regarding the man you mention--he may be so used to using his weight as a shield that he is scared of meeting anyone who might take him seriously. In other words, it may not be your weight that put him off, but his own fear of intimacy. In any case, I'm sure God has something better for you.
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